Porcupine

Although we had been with each other for a number of years (52wk x 9years) and been through different stages of her life;(single->married-> mother) it is strange to note that as the years past the relationship went into the opposite directions. May be the saying “familiarity breed contempt” is true; somehow over the years felt that she belongs to the group of people “ in summer time” that live in their own world( as mentioned in P&S session) ; there is not much point for me to talk much about my current being esp nothing good to talk about now. Here is just some recent events happen bet porcupine and me occurred: Incident 1: While sharing about Wesley website provides membership update, out of enthusiasm I exclaimed” they even send newsletter to me when I was in US :)” Her immediate replied “ you quite toa pie” I was a bit stunned by her remark. ur.. it was never my intension to show that how important I was but to illustrate the usefulness of website.
Incident 2: Just last week before group started, we are all munching our dinner esp me who is munching a chicken pie. :0 She offered to pour drink for us, ok one for Andy, one for serene, but… hey where mine? I asked “which cup is mine?”, her reply is “ I failed math” that’s a good one huh.

I came to this conclusion that she so poky because of dislike me in subconscious mind. That why she was so curb in her remarks, nothing encouraging. :(

take a step backwards

Like what I blog in the car & blessing. Finally mum said reason why she will not accept Christ is that she didn’t see any blessing in my life. She told me that she doubt whether she make the right decision to allow me to baptize. What she sees is that I have been serving in the church, helping out in people wedding, yet didn’t receive any good thing in return. I really got nothing to defend about. W.M approach me about leading the sound team, I was very hesitant and apprehensive because it just mean more work and maybe more trials for me.Been lead means you became the offical dart board to the congregation to "shoot dart" ie complain. Now with what mum commented, I decided to reject her offer for the sound lead.

I have just email to step down from prayer coordinator role. Although it may appear to be simple role, it takes a bit of patience. First,there will be people who are perpetual late in submitting request. This group of people is rather inconsiderate because other person request may “expire” when sending out the request. Like iris prayer request “expire” by the time it ready to be send out thus it become a thanksgiving item or andy request was the healing of sinus and she was healed by the time it ready to be send. Just last week, ck was asking why the request is not sent out because she needs the group support. There is another group of people with strings of “and” in the request. Although my grammar is not good, I remembered my teacher taught me that there is only one “and” in the statement, use “,” for the in between. ;)

Feeling very weary with thoughts of my current situations, things that happen this few years, people that suppose to be close walks out of my life.Just received some sms from paul,grace and viv on their view of mum comments. They are rather encouraging, dont feel so weary now.Maybe the evil one is discouraging me again.

chameleon & his feng shui

It seems to be a yearly event that chameleon would get some expert to look into the fengshui of the company. He would dutifully and faithfully do what was to be told. Each year that guy would tell him that his biz will boom. Pecker told me that “ I also can predict after cny the biz will boom. This is because the order usually comes in after cny“. I just smiled. On mon night after we came back from the swap place, suddenly chameleon approach me and ask what was my Chinese horoscope. After I told him, he quickly brought a piece of paper and told me that on 1 feb he is doing something in office and bet 9-1pm people of my horoscope cannot be around. Ok. I am fine with this, just felt he is too much into this thing.

These days I receive not much email or call from chameleon. On 1 feb, when we (chameleon, pecker & me) had lunch . He was didn’t talk to me at all. After that pecker asked what happen, I told her I have NO idea. Feeling dragged of going in office, hence I am out of office these two days. Guess, as Raymond encourage me to talk to him, I would try to talk about the swap place handover next week. Hope he is willing to spend some time there.